Heather's Journal #5 - "Tolerating a Smile" (By Me) (that would be Heather, not Mom)

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“Tolerating a Smile” (By Me)

I’m restless to believe I’ll be okay

That the storm ahead won’t come my way

Where is my success from my attempts not to fail?

Unlock these chains and set me free from this jail

A life spent searching for the end of the rainbow

Is what I have perfected hoping no one will ever know

I can’t shake the voices or mental pictures

And I can’t block out the lingering whispers

Steady urges go un-filled

While tears are forever set still

Standing in silence the rain starts to fall

Come let it pour and I’ll get through the worse of it all

I’ll figure life out and who I’m destined to become

But I refuse to run away from this storm above