Heather's Journal #87. "James 1:5 'If any of you lacks wisdom...." 7-9-08"

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James 1:5 “If any of you lacks wisdom, let him ask God, who Gives to all men generously and without reproaching, and it will be given to him.”

7-9-08

Silence my heart… take my soul captive so I don’t have to make decisions.  I’ve made such a mess of things.  I cannot deal with my past and teenage life at the same time. It’s all too much for me.  God hears me screaming… why is he so delayed at rescuing me?  I can’t breath.  I can’t see.  I’m scared to move.  I’m terrified of leaving  everything I’ve ever known….

 I will strive to be better.

In Christ,

Heather Lee

“You’re sinking in this and you don’t even know where to go as the darkness unfolds.  Nobody sees it, it’s where you’re alone.  And all you know is that you want to start again.  We’re taking action again, do you believe in what you need?  That you will find your story’s end?

Dear Heather,

Take my heart captive. Believe that He will. 

But you are also believing these lies:

  *Your life is too much to bear. 

  *God is delaying His rescue.

  *You cannot breathe.

The Truth is:

  *He will not give you more than you can bear.

  *God is waiting on you.

  *You are surviving.

Release the Lies. Embrace the Truth.

I love you.

Mom

Lord,

Please take Heather’s heart captive.  Make it one with Yours. Help her find peace and rest.  Take what little trust she has and use it to the fullest.  She is sinking further into despair – all the while knowing that she is doing it.  Help her.

I love you.

Heather’s Mom